My Trip of a Lifetime

I had a good cry earlier. The cry came from my ticket (read my last post titled UH OH). Sometimes you just have to cry. Cry for no reason at all. Cry because you are frustrated. Cry to help releave some pain that you have. I've cried for all of the reasons I just gave. I go in search of songs that'll help me cry. Crying releaves soooo many things. Tension that's built up...pain from a death or breakup...even for no reason. Music helps with that. Trust me on that one. It will always make you feel better. And as much as I hate to admit it, once in a while I do like to listen to love songs and cry. Sad songs. Now I feel a bit better. I just wanna have a happier and less stressful life...but it'll be hard to find. A happy and stress free or less stressful life seems like it only hapens in my dreams or only hapens to the rich. :-/

I think that I may be in for an EARFULL when my fiance gets home from work. What's the reason??! The reason is because I hadn't told him that I had gotten a ticket back in October until TODAY. Yes you read that right. I got a ticket October 28, 2011...and I didn't tell him. I can't explain WHY I didn't tell him except that (1) I was embarrassed and (2) I wanted to pay for it, but couldn't ever figure out HOW to pay for it online. It'll cost me 159 bucks for the ticket itself. Bummer....yes, very much so. It's my first ticket EVER so I don't know what's gonna happen. Not sure if they will make me pay for it or let me off or make me take a driving class in order to have it dropped off of my record. Just not sure. Do I regret NOT telling him before now? LIKE HELL I DO!!!!! I hope that he can forgive me and that his trust in me is restored again. I hate the feeling of letting people down. I hate having people be disappointed in me. I'...

I'm gonna be really honest right now. I wish that I was like my friend Laura. Never talking bad about anyone. Being a good...no AWESOME...believer in Christ. I wish that I could walk in Christ like she does. Her life hasn't been easy, but it's been easier than mine. Granted her mom and dad divorced due to infidelity and her dad remarried. But her dad is still alive. My dad committed suicide. boo to that!!! But her parents raised her in the church. Mine didn't. My grandparents took me and my younger sister to church. It was an EXTREME rarity that my mom went to church. I only remember my dad going ONCE and that was because I was in the Children's Choir and we were doing a play one Sunday night. I think that if my parent's had raised me in church, I wouldn't have made some many mistakes. That's not to say that ALL church going people are mistake free. We all make mistakes. I just think that mine would be few and far between. I would still be a virg...

If I didn't know any better, Spring has been here for a while. But, they are saying that Spring has just now gotten here. hmmmmm..... I saw a newspaper article titled (kinda rewording it a bit), "Winter is gone, and Spring is here!!! (BUT WHO KNEW??!)" That's not the exact title, but you understand what I am trying to say. Winter never really showed up...I LOVE winter. I just don't like the snow. I used to like snow before I started working in my local (1 of many) hospital. When it snows and ices, they enact the BAD WEATHER PLAN.....which means I get to go and live at the hospital for "X" numer of days. Like I said before, I never really knew that winter was here. My theory is this...if I can wear pants and a short sleeved or 3/4 inch sleeved shirt, then it's too warm for the winter. Now it's like in the 80's in MARCH! Wow is all I can really say. It's been kinda weird this year.

.....depression??! I can't tell the difference. Well, actually, today I could. Today was boredom/migraine day. Along with the migraine came some nausea. I put it off to it being a "mild" hangover. Mild being the fact that I didn't throw up...but I got it to go away with food and medicine and rest.  Just weird is all. Just weird. I do eat out of boredom and I do eat out of sadness/depression. More so boredom than anything else. I hate it, too. I hate it because I can't figure out how to control it. There are soooo many things that I want to do, but because my mind goes so fast (I have ADHD to top everything off) I just sit on my fat butt all day long. :-/ Because I sit on my butt all day, I eat because I am bored...I then gain weight...which then I get all sad and junk...which just makes me eat MORE. And the cycle continues. Maybe I will go to the gym that my apartment complex has and work out before I go find a wedding dress. Wedding dress shopping SHO...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/03/16/matt-spaccarelli-att_n_1354573.html?ref=technology&icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl9%7Csec3_lnk3%26pLid%3D144346 *** THE CUSTOMER!!! In this story, the customer took AT&T to court because AT&T was slowing down his "unlimited" data package. Said customer says that "Unlimited is unlimited...no matter what." According to the article, which I have attached the link at the beginning of this blog, says "Said Customer has an "unlimited data" plan, but as of this fall, AT&T had begun slowing download speeds for these subscribers if they use more than a certain amount of data in a month." In my mind, as well as everyone else's minds, unlimited means just that...UNLIMITED. So, said customer decided to take the company to small claims court and won. The courts sided with said customer, but AT&T claimed they were gonna appeal. Well, AT&T caved and paid up. Thanks, AT&T for doing ...