My Trip of a Lifetime

I grew up with them. I loved them. They were the BEST fairy tales ever!!! I watched the movies all the time growing up. I couldn't get enough of them.  Let's fast forward to the present. People are now saying the stories are sexist. That they wish that they weren't here. All because they tell girls that they aren't as smart as boys and tells girls that they deserve massive pieces of  jewelry if the man really loves them. That their man needs to be rich. That girls can't do what boys can do...climb trees, play in the dirt, go hunting, financially take care of the family, etc. (I saw a story that pretty much stated this on AOL ).  What I don't get is how parent's are always so serious with their kids now a days. I get that everything kinda sucks, but let your kids be kids and have imaginations. Didn't they believe in Santa, Easter Bunny, and the Tooth Fairy??! I did. Tell your kids that these princess stories are fairy tales...that they AREN'T re...

Depression eating...Is it possible??! For me it is. Do you do it??! I get what I call depression when I am alone. Granted I'm not a big fan of groups, but it's a hell of a lot better than being alone. When I'm alone, I get sad.....really sad. Not suicidal. I don't believe in suicide at all. Just sad. So I eat...and eat...and eat some more. Today, I ordered a medium pizza from Pizza Hut. A medium has 8 peices. I ate half of the pizza today. the other half is now in the fridge split into 2 2-peice servings. I can't believe I did that, but when it comes to depression eating, all you do is eat, eat, and eat some more!!! A lot of women self medicate with food...sometimes I wonder if men self medicate with food as well. I would think that they did, too. It's an insaciable (sp?) hunger that NOTHING fills. Nothing, I mean food wise. When I get to where I am right now, I don't want to do anything, I text my fiance a million times, and I just sit on my ass a...

It's Valentine's Day. I hope everyone is having a LOVELY day (and yes that was full of sarcasm). No, Patrick and I haven't broken up. He just had to work a double and I happen to be off of work today. :-/ I wanted flowers....but didn't get those. I wanted a card....but didn't get that. However, I DID get a big, ol' fluffy teddy bear!!!!! He's keeping me company at the moment. Keeping me from completely being sad about today. I'm very lonely...all of my friends are doing stuff with their families and significant others today. Me you ask? I'm sitting on the couch in the apartment that I share with Patrick, in my PJ's, watching THE FIRST 48, and waiting for dinner to get done cooking. I took a shower, hoping that I could forget about today.....but it didn't help that much. Just made me a bit sadder. But my bear, whom I affectionately call Patrick Jr., is keeping me company and helping me through the day. I shouldn't be that sad abo...

.....Is just beginning!!! I've had boyfriends. I've lived to a certain degree through my friends, co workers, and family. But to finally move in and get MARRIED??! Now THAT is truly a trip of a lifetime!!!!! I know yesterday I was talking about having cold feet. I swear that sometimes the Devil (and I sometimes allow this to happen) to take over my heart and convince me that I am doing the WRONG thing by marrying Patrick. It is the RIGHT thing for me to do...marrying Patrick. Sometimes you have to banish the bad stuff out (or in my case, the Devil himself). I'm pretty good at doing that....I just pray and demand and pray some more that the devil leave me alone and stop giving me bad thoughts. It works.....until he comes back. But that's because I don't continue to pray that he stay away. So, again I ask you, please follow me on my personal trip of a lifetime!!!!!

"At Last" singer, Etta James, passed away yesterday. Sad news for a lot of people....her fans and most importantly her family. She unfortunately lost her battle to leukemia. Bless you, Ms. Etta James!!! May you rest in peace. May your music continue to live on in your honor here on earth and may you continue to make BEAUTIFUL music up in heaven!!! God Bless you!!!

Guess what??! I'm moving!!!!!! I've been packing some of my room up today. My fiance, Patrick, and I have found an apartment. We are renting it for 14 months.....kinda scary, but exciting all at the same time.  I can't wait to step foot into the next chapter of our lives. I'm just ending this chapter.  Chapter 1--our first date and us dating/being in an exclusive relationship. Chapter 2--engagement. Chapter 3--moving in together. (Not all couples chapter 3 is living together.) Chapter 4--us getting married. Chapter 5--me getting into school and going to nursing school, then graduating. Chapter 6--starting a family (or having kids).  I'm a little excited, yet apprehensive about this new step. I'm sure that it's completely normal to feel this way. I'm thinking that us living together will help us learn even more about each other. How we like things, how we do things, how we like stuff set up, etc. If you are the praying type, please pray ...

If you watched Miss America, then you saw Miss Alabama get saved. I want to tell her congrats for making it all the way to Miss America. I also happen to have had the pleasure of graduating from high school with her. Courtney, you made EVERYONE proud of you...from your former high school all they way to around the state. You were BEAUTIFUL, GORGEOUS, and STUNNING all at the same time. I know that your mom would have been SOOOO proud. She was cheering for you from Heaven!!! I know I was (and still am) extremely proud of you!!!