Trying For A Baby

Patrick and I have been trying for a baby for around 4 months. Yay!!!  To say that I am ecstatic is an understatement. 

I can't believe that, after 8 years of marriage, there's a chance that he and I could be parents. 

At first, he kept saying that he wasn't ready and everything. He wasn't 100% on board at first, but he is now. (I put it to being scared...it's new!!!)

I can't wait to see what happens. Sometimes it takes one shot. Sometimes it takes several tries. I'm not all that worried right now. We are just taking it slowly and seeing where it takes us. 

It's weird. This whole trying for a baby thing. At one point, I was SO gung ho about  NOT wanting a baby. 

So, why now? 

Well, I've been feeling this really strong tug to become a mother. I had mentioned it (sober...ill explain in a moment) off and on for several months to no avail. He just pushed it to the side and put it off to seeing people having babies left and right. 

Finally, one evening, we had been drinking and I blurted out (suddenly at that cause it had been a couple months since I last said anything) that I wanted a baby. Did I know what I was doing??! Yes, in fact, I did. 

Patrick knows that if I have alcohol in my system, it acts as a truth serum. Well, I blurted it out and it took him by surprise. He was surprised because he thought that I had been joking this whole entire time.

No sir, I have not been joking. I really do want a baby. I want to be a mother. Now is as good a time as ever. I just hope the good Lord above sees it fit to bless me with motherhood. 

 

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