What does it mean??!

So, I keep getting these gut feelings of I need to divorce my husband, Patrick.

What in the he'll does it mean??!

I love him and I'm IN love with him, but I keep feeling like we aren't meshing together well. I've felt this way for 5.5 almost 6 years out of the 7 total years we've been together. I keep praying to God to give me guidance and this is what I continue to get.

I hear you God. I ready do. I just have so many reasons why I can't go thru with it right now. (1) We are still paying for his car and neither one of us can afford it on our own. I don't want him to be without a car. (2) We can't afford an actual divorce, much less the other fees that goes along with it. (3) Can't afford to go bankrupt. (4) I'm afraid I'd break his heart. (5) I don't want to let down my family nor his family.

Yeah. Some are truly legit. Why I didn't end the relationship BEFORE we moved in together, I'll never, ever know. Now I'm here, I feel stuck most days, but I don't want to end it even tho I know i need to. This marriage is not good for me. It's not good for him. I think he knows, but he won't admit it.

He's a good man most days. He does have his moments where I feel like he treats me like shit. I've invested SOOOO much time into this relationship, and he has too!!!

This sucks!!! I need help figuring my shit out and how to go about getting a cheap assed divorce once his car is paid off....but I'm not sure how to bring it up to him!!!!!!

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