My Trip of a Lifetime

What do I do??  I'm having issues at work with one coworker. She's making my life a living hell. She says that I "need to do better" at work, but won't elaborate. Then, behind my back, is saying that I'm stupid. And doesn't understand my thought process.  And that she thinks I'm not management potential and that she is going to do everything in her power to keep me from being one. She keeps saying she's gonna continue to put me in drive thru every time she opens.  How, in the name of all things good and holy, do I stand up to someone who has this mindset??! HOW??! I cry...a lot...cause of how she makes me feel. I swore up and down that I would never let anyone do this to me...and I have. She has figured out a way to do it.  I'm sittingnhere now, typing while I'm crying. She has made me want to either transfer or just quit. I. Am. MISERABLE!!!!!   I don't wanna transfer. I don't want to quit. I feel like I've given up. 😕  But if...

Patrick and I have been trying for a baby for around 4 months. Yay!!!  To say that I am ecstatic is an understatement.  I can't believe that, after 8 years of marriage, there's a chance that he and I could be parents.  At first, he kept saying that he wasn't ready and everything. He wasn't 100% on board at first, but he is now. (I put it to being scared...it's new!!!) I can't wait to see what happens. Sometimes it takes one shot. Sometimes it takes several tries. I'm not all that worried right now. We are just taking it slowly and seeing where it takes us.  It's weird. This whole trying for a baby thing. At one point, I was SO gung ho about   NOT wanting a baby.  So, why now?  Well, I've been feeling this really strong tug to become a mother. I had mentioned it (sober...ill explain in a moment) off and on for several months to no avail. He just pushed it to the side and put it off to seeing people having babies left and right.  Finally, one e...

So, this one lady that I (used to) work with no longer works where I work. She had interviewed and got the position of "shift manager" at Moe's.  Great!!! Awesomeness!!! Whatever. But she had been saying that if our GM didn't get his act together (whatever) and didn't give her more hours, she was going to leave. She had also been saying that she was interviewing at Moe's and one or two other places as a backup plan. Ok, cool. You do you. I'll support you no matter what.  So, she puts in her notice and tells our scheduling manager that she'd work out the week this week, but not to schedule her for NEXT week. I'm going out on a limb by saying that it sounds like she's going to be starting her new job at that point in time.  But, I digress.  She calls me today bitching about my GM. Saying that he took her hours away even though she is claiming that she was going to work out some of her hours for the week that's been posted. She claims that he ...

So, I used to have random pregnancy dreams leading up to me meeting my husband of 6 years.  Two of those dreams were me during a couple of baby showers. The third, however, was me in labor. My water broke and my "husband" stood in the door way of the hospital room. Then after that dream, no others of me being pregnant came about because I had met Patrick.  I did have one or two about my sister and one of my friends. But no others about ME.  Until the last two nights. January 19 and 20. Freaked me out...still does. I haven't told Patrick about the dreams because I don't want me to freak out and I don't really want him to dismiss it, either. Because what if God (yes, I am a Christian and I wholeheartedly believe that God and Jesus are real) is telling me something. What if I'm being told that I need to have a baby??  I know what most people would say. Don't read into it. It was just a dream. But what if it was MORE than that?? More than "just ...

My heart is still heavy with sadness and missing my grandmother.  I miss her terribly...and always will. See, I was her first grandchild ever. My aunt and uncle couldn't have children of their own and they also tried many times with adoption without success.  She had my heart and I had hers.  This will be the first Christmas without her. I am usually all happy-go-lucky when it comes to Christmas. And I was prior to her death. Now I'm like, "Meh!! It's not so fun anymore." I'm hoping that my love of Christmas will return. Thanksgiving and Christmas are two of my favorite times of the year!!! It was also my grandmother's two favorite times of the year. She always wanted her entire family with her for these two celebrations. Always.  My heart is just...heavy...to say the least. I look at my tree and can't help but think of my grandmother. I hadn't gotten her anything for Christmas because I was waiting until a little closer to get something ...

I'm still missing my grandmother something fierce. She had my heart and I had hers. I will forever be grateful for her and her love.  I was taking a shower one day (I take a shower everyday) and I smelled what I thought was the scent she always wore. It was a fleeting moment. But I still smelled it. As I was standing in the shower letting the water fall over me, I was wondering if it was really her scent or not.  So, I decided to do a sniff of my bath stuff and my husband's bath stuff. The scent wasn't any of those things. All I could do was smile. Smile because she came to see me. Smile because it was like she was telling me that it was ok and that she was ok. That she was in heaven and was whole again. No more broken bones, her blood pressure was normal again, no more anemia, and that her eyesight was back to normal again.  For these things I am forever grateful.  But that doesn't mean that I'm not still heartbroken over her death.  I know that she i...

My wonderful grandmother, my mom's mom, went to be with her Lord and Savior Jesus Christ on Saturday, November 24, 2018.  She had fallen on the 23 (Black Friday) and had broken her leg. She went to the ER at UAB where they took immaculate care of her. The floor she was on at UAB once she was admitted was P9 (aka the Camellia Pavilion in the West Pavilion at UAB). They took the very best care of her Friday night and once she got back from surgery. Unfortunately, her 94 year old body was just tired and couldn't hold it's blood pressure like it should have been able to.  She slipped away in her sleep with family by her side. She was also an avid Alabama Crimson Tide fan and just happened to have the game on when she passed away.  She was, and is, the greatest grandmother around. She adored family and all of her friends. She loved her Lord and Savior Jesus Christ more than anything in this world. I know that she is with her husband (my grandfather) and also she is with ...