My Trip of a Lifetime

Dear Lord,      I am lifting my husband up to you now. Lord, Patrick has recieved word from Bojangles. He put an application in for management. They have called him back wishing to speak with him about his resume.      Lord, I am asking that everything go as planned and that you lead him down this path to management. Lord, all Patrick wants is to be in management. No one will give him a shot in the dark. He wants that shot to show what he can do. I have faith in you and him both.      Please help us oh Lord. I jsut want to follow your path for our lives.      AMEN!!!!!

So yeah... I"ve been having horrible attitude's at work.  I wanna blame part of it (ok ALL of it) on PMS. But it's just because I am irked and miserable with my job and some of my co-workers. They cock an attitutde with me and they are lazy for the most part, so I get pissed off. I try to do what they do and I get called out on it. Highly irritating!!!!! I am planning on transferring to Women's Serviced shortly. Maybe within the next month or so. I am trying soooo hard to NOT have a bad attitude all the time...espically when I am here at work. I have a mantra that I have started posting. "Today will be a good day. My attitude will be good, too." I am trying hard to have a good attitude at work. So hard. Trying not to let people get to me. Keep reminding myself to not let them get to me. To not let bad thoughts enter my brain and bounce around in there. To keep good thoughts coming. Reminding myself that it's only 12 hours....ONLY 12 HOURS!!!!!!

Brrrrrrr From Alabama to You!!! Ha!! Oh, Mother Nature, thank you for FINALLY giving us some COLD weather!!!!! 30 and below. I hate HOT winters. Winter is supposed to be COLD. 

So, my husband was sick with a stomach bug for three days this past week. Then on the third day he called in, about 15 min later he get's a text from his boss saying, "Thanks for the comment on the voicemail...the games are over..." Uh?!?! The hell does that mean?! Back story on "A"...he's a drug head and alcoholic. He pushes (physically) his staff around. He's verbally abusive as well to his staff. No one in the building likes him. He says that he is always "stressed", when in reality all he does is sit in front of his computer and stare into it like it has him in a trance!!! Not to mention, there are around two to three pictures of "A" sleeping at his desk. If you didn't know, sleeping on the job is a fireable offense. Everyone knows better than to sleep at the desk. He never gets his breakfast stuff and lunch stuff out on time. Has his staff do stuff and then redo it when it was done right the FIRST time. He's been ...

Actually, I know that I don't want them. Not sure how I tell my husband, other than just say it very bluntly to him...HONEY I DON'T WANT KIDS. But that way just sounds mean. Why do I not want them?? Reason is is that I don't have that motherly urge. I don't ooh and ahh over baby and kid stuff like I used to. I don't ooh and ahh over babies anymore. I can't and don't see myself being a mother. I don't think it's fair to bring one or more into this world when I don't want to be a parent. I think that it would be a MASSIVE mistake for me to have a child when I feel like this. And ladies who ARE mothers, please do not tell me that this "phase" will pass. This is not a pass ladies. Nor will I EVER regret NOT having a child. I'm sure that if I did have one, I'd love it regardless. But unfortunately, I don't have that maternal urge like a lot of women have. It's not that I hate kids, cause I don't. I love kids. I ...

Well, I may be going back to school here before long. Maybe is the key word. If I do go back to school, it will be for Medical Assistant. My mom is helping me try to get in to this one particular school. It will be all online. But first, we have to make sure that Alabama's Medical Assistants Accrediation people will allow this particular school. If they will, then I will be able to start soon. I just hope that it comes through for me. I really need to be able to get this degree. I need to be able to make more money than just $11.83 an hour. I need to be able to work anywhere instead of in an ER or in a department store. I just hope it comes through.

So, I am selling a few things on eBay right now. It's only 8 things. I'm getting views and a couple of watchers, but no one is buying these 8 things. AHHHHHH!!!! I get that not everyone is gonna buy what I have...or that they may find the same stuff but a lower price. The members only leather jacket has had around 88-90 views, but no buyers. Its $18.75...or around that price range!!! I was originally asking $50 for it!!! That's a major drop in price. If you are interested in it, come to www.ebay.com and look for the screen name manderin113. That would be me selling the MEMBERS ONLY LEATHER JACKET.